I remember seeing a portrait frame in my aunt’s house with beautiful cars in the street that i always admired whenever i visited her house. It had a beautiful flowers, and the car seemed to be expensive and elegant. The streets are clean in the picture, beautiful towering building of the city, very pleasant to the eye. But it is the word that were below the photos that has kept me thinking, 12 years later.
The words were beautifully curved at the bottom of the picture frame with red fonts “Our days are always crowded, with too much to do, and very little time”. At that time, i did not give much attention to the words, but i just considered them as beautiful phrases from rich people.
But today my days are crowded, i always find myself with soo much in my hand, such that am overwhelmed. Like a hanging computer, i feel like am stack in some mornings, wondering where to start. There is this unit to be studied, there is an assignment from my professor and i have to prepare for the lessons i will teach during the day. There are messages to answer, emails and people to call. i have emails never read for the last 6 years. How on earth will i get time to go through 20000 emails.
Sometimes i wish to ask God to add number of hours in day, but He add only night hours, lest my employer take an advantage of the same:;
I want to go for a date in the evening yet there is a research work in my desk. I know i should start the day with a devotion, then exercise, then cleaning, shower, make my bed, have my breakfast and off to work. But most often, i have to skip morning exercise because there is some reading assignment i must finish before leaving for work. Before am done with the assignment, i realize that i have only 40 minutes to prepare myself, travel and be at office, 40 kilometers away. I don’t want to be late, because my boss noted i was late last week. I slept late trying to understand calculus, and write few codes of java for my ongoing project.
As i start my day in office, I just realize that my girlfriend is mad at me, she has not answered my good morning message i sent 3 hours ago! It is my fault, i was to call her last evening and i forgot, i hectically dial her number. She is not picking, perhaps she is already in office, or just angry. That causes me to start my day worried but life has to move on.
My office is soo busy. I have many lessons to teach for grade 8,9,10 and 11. By the evening am soo tired, but i must read a book no matter what. After all, my PHD requires a lot of study.
So my life is full of things to do. But i must give the 10 hours of each day to my employer lest i fail to pay my bills. I love my job, am always happy when i see my students happy because of my teachings. The curiosity i have created in them, gives me a lot of hope and fulfilment. But am not living in my ideal life. I want to be able to do exercise every morning. This activity is always postponed. Wish i could just create a fixed time for it and never skip it.
So i have a life full of activities. Most of them cannot be accomplished in a single day. I have to prioritize, but it is like physical fitness has never been given a priority in my schedules. This year am considering it.
Another thing i keep postponing is dates, and am worried i may get old while still single. i need to quit this rat race and have an organized life:;
